All of you who've suffered chronic pain probably already know what I'm about to say.
In the beginning, my doctor was supportive and would give me pain meds to get by day by day. When I'd run out, I quickly found that my body was dependent, but my mind wasn't.
Fast forward now to two years later... I have zero pain meds and my pain gets so bad that I end up in the ER about 3-4 times per week.
Per my doctor's request, one ER will not give me ANY pain medicine no matter what. So like if I broke my let, I'd be up shit creek.
The other local ER has had about enough of me and no longer wants to give me in pain meds.
To make it all worse, each time I go to an ER, they immediately report that to my doctor who calls me first thing in the morning to berate me and remind me that I'm not supposed to taking pain meds from anybody.
Too bad I live in a small town, otherwise I just switch PCP's.
I'm just damned if I do and damned if I don't.
Over the course of the past few years, I've had:
Hydrocodone 5
Hydrocodone 10
Percocet 5
Percocet 10
Fentnyl pain patch
I'm not suicidal at this time, but the last time I was, it was because I was in so much pain on a continuous basis without any real help. I'm getting to that dark place again.
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